Fade Away Fast, Please!

Nature Reclaiming the Garden Hotel

First of all, please pardon my whining this week. I chose a photo of the deteriorating Garden Hotel this week because it seemed to communicate with my underlying feelings. This photo is not even one of my favorite photos taken this week.  I pass by this place frequently and each time I do it taunts me by saying "You're tired of seeing me aren't you?"  

Right know I am experiencing an undercurrent of that message with my photography.  I am tired of seeing the images that I am creating.  I haven't lost my interest in photography, but I seem to be at that train depot waiting for new inspiration to arrive.  I am carrying my baggage with me in the form of  projects I still want to complete but haven't due to a number of excuses --  not reasons.  In the meanwhile, I am making myself busy with what I think are semi engaging images that keep me practicing my photography in order to be ready when the grand, inspiring idea comes along.  A published writer of novels tells me that she writes every day for one hour even through those uninspired periods.  Dieters, athletes, students, musicians, and photographers go through these plateau periods perhaps to gain footing for the next stage while holding on to hope the next stage will appear at just the right time.  Even the act of writing that last sentence felt a bit therapeutic.

The Garden Hotel which itself  has become an overgrown garden of mold, weeds and rubble like my image filing system.  Demolition of the building is scheduled to begin this month and is to be completed by December this year.  My eyes will be glad to see it gone and just empty space remaining.  I will enjoy seeing snow rest on the ground where it sat all these years  For me, the vacant land will present itself as a fresh canvas inviting new ideas.